Will I be back?

I am an addict who recently quit drinking alcohol. This is not a rehab question but I go through delerium tremens. Which I THOUGHT I had almost gotten through (feeling a bit back to normal) I go through them alone (without medical attention) and until now have gotten through mostly unscathed. I have not slept much in days (which usually happens) so it's safe to say my body is exhausted. Anyways last night I had some chest squeezing that led to an anxiety attack. After being calmed down by the significant other I was able to lightly sleep. But again I woke up this time feeling a tingling/ buzzing through all of my insides. From my brain down. It was terrifying. I was able to sleep lightly a little longer but woke up and now I just don't feel normal. My brain is fuzzier I had a bit of tachycardia. Wanted to know if ill ever be back to "me" again. I can't keep making my significant other stay up each night to watch me panic. Though again walking and talking seems fine. My thinking is muggy. And I do t feel quite "here". I don't have insurance I am a 27 year old Caucasian female who weighs 200 lbs. I am 5'5 and a smoker (ill address quitting later) of about a pack a day. (I realize the heart problems) I can't afford a doctor nor the tests it takes for them to figure this out. I thought I was Over the hump. I drank for approximately 7 days straight this time. A bottle a day of whiskey chased by beer. I stopped drinking Saturday evening late. I know the dts can last quite a while but I've never gone through that "tingling trembling buzzing" feeling before and I have had every symptom including what I think was a seizure (body racking temporarily paralyzed) this was not that and it was not painful but scary. Will I ever feel back to "me" or am I stuck In this fog for life?

2014-12-05 04:37:49

Amy