I woke up as usual today with the same dread I do everyday. I don't even have time to think before the dread and depression start thinking for me. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I rarely leave home. my few friends want more from me than I can give. They don't get depression and anxiety and as I've mentioned before I have one friend that totally disrespects me and has little boundaries with his comments. But aside from that I'm just very depressed and hopeless. Wish I could cry more but that release always feels near the surface but doesn't really let go. Its been a battle for more years than I want to mention. I'm tired.
2014-10-30 03:18:35
Depression cannot be wished away it cannot be swiped away or magically removed or out waited away. Depression must be dealt with on a day to day basis and then on the next day and the next day and the next. It is the hardest job a person can have to meld the past with the present and make friends with that new entity. But it can be done. You don't make mention of any therapy or therapy group that you might have been or are involved with. You don't mention making gratitude and thankfulness for another day as part of your early morning ritual. There are many steps on the path to healing. The first ones taken are usually the hardest but well worth the effort... Good luck to you
2014-10-30 03:19:09
