About a month and a half to two months ago i developed an ear infection in first my right then left ears after a while it came back to my right ear but i didnt go to the doc. About 1 week ago i noticed slight inflammation on my palate (right under my right sinuses the striated or bumpy part in the back) and was so scared that it was oral cancer that it prompted me to immediately stop smoking and chewing (chewed some grizzly on and off for 6 months a couple years ago then it petered out to a can every few months smoked between 1/2 pack and 2-5 cigs a day for 4 years) and quit smoking entirely (i use ecig vape now) because it wasnt really accompanied by any other symptoms. I was so scared for the next 4 days that i had a hard time functioning normally both emotionally and mentally. I thought i was a walking dead man and it weiged on my mind every send of those days. this prompted a trip to the doctor who after looking in my ear and throat said (its allll red back there and that ear has fluid in it) and proceeded to prescribe me bactrim 1x800/160 twice daily. The anxiety didnt stop there as i still had it weighing on my mind taht this infection was something terrible because i had let it go for so long this prompted a lot of searching online and for a few days i did nothing but sit at my computer thinking i had a growing brain abscess and that i was terminal. that fear made it even worse and i still have it very badly for the last couple days i have done nothing but pace and try to self diagnose with huge spikes in my anxiety every time i feel a tinge in my head or sinuses. I am so scared that it might be an abscess i am beside myself and dont know what to do. the fear is awful and debilitating mentally i cant focus on the things i like hardly. On the given occasions i have this "moment of clarity" where i realize that i am just over assessing and self diagnosing and my mental state soars... they last for about 10 mins to a half hour before my mind is racing on what could be wrong with my face/head and that it may have spread to my brain so much so that i feel like any slight fatigue in my muscles on my right side (the side the infection is on) is a sign of a brain abscess or any confusion i have about anything is another symptom of it even the tenderness in my right upper temple makes me almost shut down with fear. I was diagnosed with moderate to severe depression at the age of sixteen when i started cutting myself and having severe depressive episodes. i still suffer from depression but it has gotten mildly better over the years. I havent cut myself in a year now. i am a marijuana user nearly daily when i have access to it and for the last few days i havent had a single hit of weed. i have mild athsma and seasonal allergies i had severe (hospitalized) athsma when i was 2. i dont know what to do and am on the verge of tearing up every half hour because i am so scared i may have a brain abscess.
2014-11-03 11:12:43
Seeing an oral surgeon is advised.
2014-11-03 11:13:09
