just venting

I've been so happy about getting 3d and 4d pictures done of my baby since I found out I was pregnant. My boyfriend hasn't gone to any of my appointments not even when I found out what we were having I understand he has to work but come on!! Well my 3 and 4d is scheduled for tomorrow night and tonight he wants to start arguing because I'm not comfortable at his house so I don't want to stay every night. Because he has his other daughter that the mom is a total piece of **** who NEVER gets her child and apparently she's too good to come to my house. But I cannot live around whenever the thing decides to get her child I'm due end of December and he expects me to keep taking the baby in and out from my house to his because of him always having the other child. I cannot do that my baby is gonna end up sick. Well now he's saying he ain't taking me to get it done. I have another ride to go but it would be so nice to have him there with me but then I said something to him about going shopping a little bit for the baby while we are in the city because where we live is nothing and he got all ****** and said to just get my dad to take me because he ain't going shopping. He has really hurt my feelings tonight. We never do anything together before I got pregnant and now I'm due in next couple weeks and he still don't wanna do anything with me not even for our baby. I'm really feeling like he's not wanting her or something. He's talking about wanting to buy this and that for her but he ain't bought nothing and it's the big items like mattress swing and I don't see it happening all I wanted to get tomorrow was a nice diaper bag but it was too much to ask for. I'm so depressed and pissed it's not good. I could cry my eyes out while spitting fire. Hormones acting too crazy tonight keep having bad back pains and chest pains too.

2014-11-06 06:38:18

David