I'm 30 weeks pregnant and today the final thing that was keeping me going was ruined. My boyfriend and I broke up. He promised he'd be at my house tonight at 10 but as 11 came along he said he wasn't coming because I had messaged him that I was upset he lied. Then I said I couldn't handle this and broke up with him. He saw the message and didn't reply (it was on fb) Now I don't know what to do. I got herpes from him pregnant from him I'm being kicked out of my mom's house and I'm too depressed to work. I just want to take my life as soon as the baby is born. She'd be better off without me. And I know no guy is going to want to be with someone as ugly and worthless as me. I'm a failure at everything in life and I have nothing I want to live for. After my daughter's born I just want to take my life so I never can have anything else happen to me. I just don't know how I am going to manage for the next 10 or so weeks.
2014-10-29 02:29:10
Someone else will be able to come along later like a female who may be able to relate a little bit better than me but for now I will just say this: You do not have to have a man in your life to be happy and suicide is not the answer. I am not saying that blindly I have attempted it and I have also been to the darkest pits of depression but I can promise you if you hang in there long enough light will break through and you will see that you are perfect just the way you are. Sorry you are going through this.
2014-10-29 02:30:59
